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What happens when this is not the life I planned?

I know that every Christian believer has a moment in their life where they have to come to terms with the fact that God is the head of their life. That you aren’t just baptized and that’s it. That you aren’t just a member of someone’s congregation and that’s it. There comes a time where you have to make the decision to actually live for God... Sometimes it’s voluntary and other times, it’s involuntary. Me personally, I had to involuntarily surrender to God’s will for my life. I begrudgingly learned that God had a bigger calling over my life, and those cute little plans I had were not sufficient enough for whatever purpose he has designed me for. In the nutshell, I came to God kickin’ and screamin’ . I was not a willing participant at the time #Lol

Initially, when we make plans for our lives, we often think that we have the perfect solution, steps, and route to get to the desired success and life we long to achieve. The question then becomes, “What happens when my life is nothing like I planned it to be?” I remember it was the most frustrating thing ever to envision my life one way and actually walk through it going in the opposite direction. If you would have told me 10-11 years ago that Id be living in New York in 2018 I probably wouldn’t have believed it. Also, serving as an Undergrdauate Class Dean, and now Director? Wow, I probably would have some questions! Like... What happened to my performing arts career?? What happen to singing? What happen to the school of the arts? To know that this is a life led by God is the most comforting thing in the world. However, nobody teaches us how to morn the old life.

We don’t learn how to #release what we thought would be our life for what actually is happening right now. We miss the opportunity to be present and thankful because of it.

Think about how many times your life has changed since childhood. How many times your dreams have become something different with time and experience. This very notion let’s us know that we are constantly growing and evolving. There is a purpose behind all you’ve experienced, to touch someone else’s life. It’s far more complex than you could imagine for yourself. What I’ve learned is there is no such thing as a stand still or a destination per say. It’s a journey that you have to grow to love. Learning to love the journey is what I’m doing now... and believe me you! There are most definitely some growing pains. I honestly don’t believe growth is possible without the growing pains. I believe experiences are the best teachers. Anyone who thinks life should be pleasurable 24-7 is sadly mistaken.

Nevertheless, I couldn’t feel more blessed to be chosen by God. I couldn’t feel more blessed to be alive, well, and thriving. The faith I have in my future is due to what I’ve experienced in these past 10-11 years. Even in your own weakness, you can see God strength. There are days where I KNOW it was him, not me. So I write to encourage us in our life’s journey because just as our age changes, so does our seasons. We must continue to challenge ourselves, step outside of our comfort zone, and allow God to lead. It’s the hardest and most rewarding gift that keeps on giving. #FelderOfficial


Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT)

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Ecclesiastes 3 (NLT)

A Time for Everything

For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. A time to be born and a time to die. A time to plant and a time to harvest. A time to kill and a time to heal. A time to tear down and a time to build up. A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to grieve and a time to dance. A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones. A time to embrace and a time to turn away. A time to search and a time to quit searching. A time to keep and a time to throw away. A time to tear and a time to mend. A time to be quiet and a time to speak. A time to love and a time to hate. A time for war and a time for peace.



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